What is what?

im here you say im not
i try to touch you but i can not
you`r the doubt spinning inside
making me wonderful to deny
i love i always did
from the first glance i knew you were more then it
can i love you more bring you to real?
is not a question its more a will

baby u ask me questions
questions in vain
what could matters
stop your pain?
i cant say i love you
cause you don't allow
i would be fooling my self
if i say im proud
im on my way
bumping with you just in case
im on my way
god is my only state
i can try i can do i can succeed
i can fail i can get down on my knees
it worth just to see another day
and i wait
wait again patience is a sublime gift
i use it at my well i raise my self
while u forget my name….